The Art Of Asking

After viewing, Amanda Palmer: The art of asking, I was in awe from the discussion. I felt as though her connection with her fans is the same connection I long for with mine. Being an independent recording artist and DJ, I meet people everyday. However, asking those same to people to give me money or even assistance is never easy. Im not sure if it's a pride thing or if I am afraid, but when I need something I rather starve or go without before I ask anyone for help. I guess I never want to feel as though Im a failure. When I have gigs or even when I perform, people have asked me to put a tip jar on my DJ table, but I just can't do it. There are many times where I think about it, but I can never bring myself to do it.

I wish I had the guts to just let people help me when I need it, but being the person that I am, I just don't want to be treated like a charity case. This also gets annoying because I want to start a private school and a clothing line, but I need money to start. Therefore, eventually I will have to ask for assistance to pay for these dreams. Now if it was a couple dollars here and there that i needed, I can ask for it because I'll just give it right back. Although, how will I give back a couple hundred thousand. Unless my companies begin to make profit instantly, Im not sure if I could ever pay that back. Therefore, I don't ask for help if I can't pay you right back.

There was a young man a couple years ago who went to YouTube and asked for 1 million dollars and received it. I don't believe that I am that lucky. Even though my reason for needing the money is to help my community, I think people will just laugh in my face like everyone else has. My courage is very limited. I appear as the type of man that can demand attention, but in all honesty I am as shy as a kid going to a new school. I act as though I am the center of attention or someone who isn't scared to speak, but honestly I speak before I think so I can't be scared.

Therefore, asking anyone to give me anything is one of the toughest things to do. I even have the same effect when asking a woman out, my confidence levels aren't there. You can say I am a great actor because most of my actions in daily life is just how it sounds, acting.

With this post I just want everyone to know me for me, and to see that I am just like everyone else, I get scared too. However after viewing this speech, I want to change my ways and be more open to receiving and asking for assistance. Letting someone bless you is acceptable, especially when you need it.